Motherhood = Exhaustion

I am now the proud mom of two children. A 4 month old and a 2 1/2 year old. And I have been thinking about how to to be the best mom I can to my two children. I want to do everything I can to protect them, provide for them, etc. However, there is one little thing getting in my way. Being a mom is very very exhausting. If I could have boundless energy I could be such a great and wonderful mother. The exhaustion from lack of sleep to doing the same thing over and over again day after day was something I had never considered before I had children.

I have been potty training my two year old today. I put him in underwear for the first time. That is one thing that takes a lot of effort. Taking a little person potty several times a day. And as most people know, two year old boys are not that cooperative. Especially when learning to do a new skill that takes them away from their toys. I would have to say that he did a pretty good job. But the first time your child wears underwear you are a little on edge waiting for the accidents you know are coming.

By the end of the day I was sitting on the floor try to teach my son how to use the potty, and my 4 month old is learning to roll on the floor. Tonight for some reason the baby did lots of crying so I didn't get started on making the simplest meal until almost 6:30. My husband came downstairs to help me, and we were trying to figure out how to get Joel to stop crying. I burned the grilled cheese sandwiches in the meantime. Burned food, two year old in underwear, crying baby, piled up laundry to fold (some from the day of Ben learning to use the potty), dishes to do, baths to give, diapers to change. And I just want a few minutes to sit down to eat my dinner. A shower would also be nice. Welcome to motherhood. It was enough to make me want to just sit in the middle of the floor and start crying. But, I have realized that getting angry and or crying does not make the situation better. So I try to suck it up. And in my better moments, cry out to God for his wisdom and strength to keep going.