I am now the proud mom of two children. A 4 month old and a 2 1/2 year old. And I have been thinking about how to to be the best mom I can to my two children. I want to do everything I can to protect them, provide for them, etc. However, there is one little thing getting in my way. Being a mom is very very exhausting. If I could have boundless energy I could be such a great and wonderful mother. The exhaustion from lack of sleep to doing the same thing over and over again day after day was something I had never considered before I had children.
I have been potty training my two year old today. I put him in underwear for the first time. That is one thing that takes a lot of effort. Taking a little person potty several times a day. And as most people know, two year old boys are not that cooperative. Especially when learning to do a new skill that takes them away from their toys. I would have to say that he did a pretty good job. But the first time your child wears underwear you are a little on edge waiting for the accidents you know are coming.
By the end of the day I was sitting on the floor try to teach my son how to use the potty, and my 4 month old is learning to roll on the floor. Tonight for some reason the baby did lots of crying so I didn't get started on making the simplest meal until almost 6:30. My husband came downstairs to help me, and we were trying to figure out how to get Joel to stop crying. I burned the grilled cheese sandwiches in the meantime. Burned food, two year old in underwear, crying baby, piled up laundry to fold (some from the day of Ben learning to use the potty), dishes to do, baths to give, diapers to change. And I just want a few minutes to sit down to eat my dinner. A shower would also be nice. Welcome to motherhood. It was enough to make me want to just sit in the middle of the floor and start crying. But, I have realized that getting angry and or crying does not make the situation better. So I try to suck it up. And in my better moments, cry out to God for his wisdom and strength to keep going.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Monday, December 22, 2008
Christmas
I have been trying very hard to remember the true reason for the season this year. I have been asking God to help me remember because it seems to get lost because of all the Santa Claus stuff and the Christmas songs that contain no reminders of baby Jesus. It makes me very sad to see that the real reason seems to be forgotten, and I as a Christian even need God's help to remember the true meaning of Christmas.
I grew up not celebrating that part of Christmas. If anyone has any useful advice on how to really focus on the true meaning of Christmas, I am all ears.
I grew up not celebrating that part of Christmas. If anyone has any useful advice on how to really focus on the true meaning of Christmas, I am all ears.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Stay at home mom
Every day I have the opportunity to stay home with my son Benjamin. Because Rob and I were accustomed to living on two incomes I decided to try to earn some extra money and provide socialization for Ben by caring for another child. I now have 2 babies at my house every day. Fortunately they can be pretty easy going little boys, however they have their moments.
Right now I am listening to the sweet sound of silence because both of them are napping. However, I just got done trying to calm the storm just a short while ago. Both of them were very tired and wanting me to hold them and/or help them to get to sleep. They were quite upset. I had to take turns holding and comforting the two and fortunately it only lasted a few minutes, though it did feel like a lot longer. Fortunately that does not happen very often. Thank the Lord. The first day that I cared for them both I was walking on egg shells wondering when that would happen because I knew it was inevitable.
Most days they nap at the same time which gives me the opportunity to finish some of the chores around the house and clean up the messes we make with the toys.
Ben is now trying very hard to learn how to crawl. He gets up on his hands and knees and sometimes on his hands and feet with his bottom clear up in the air. He is going to figure this out very soon and probably give me a run for my money.
I am just so glad that I am able to work at home and be with my son every day and that he has a little play mate as well.
Right now I am listening to the sweet sound of silence because both of them are napping. However, I just got done trying to calm the storm just a short while ago. Both of them were very tired and wanting me to hold them and/or help them to get to sleep. They were quite upset. I had to take turns holding and comforting the two and fortunately it only lasted a few minutes, though it did feel like a lot longer. Fortunately that does not happen very often. Thank the Lord. The first day that I cared for them both I was walking on egg shells wondering when that would happen because I knew it was inevitable.
Most days they nap at the same time which gives me the opportunity to finish some of the chores around the house and clean up the messes we make with the toys.
Ben is now trying very hard to learn how to crawl. He gets up on his hands and knees and sometimes on his hands and feet with his bottom clear up in the air. He is going to figure this out very soon and probably give me a run for my money.
I am just so glad that I am able to work at home and be with my son every day and that he has a little play mate as well.
Monday, May 5, 2008
Gratefulness
A couple of weeks ago at church I was trying to listen to the message and of course my little son wanted to chime in some messages of his own during church. I took him to the mother's room and was sitting there by myself wondering why I bothered to come. (feeling sorry for myself) I could still hear what was going on, but it's no fun to sit there alone. Then Ben looked up at me and grinned, and I began thinking about last year and about how I feared (before I learned I was pregnant) that I would never have a chance to be a mother. I got over my feeling sorry for myself very quickly and thanked God for my son. This is such a short time that he will be a baby and I will never get it back again. I will cherish this time.
After awhile someone else came in and during prayer time I had someone to pray with after a
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After awhile someone else came in and during prayer time I had someone to pray with after a
ll.Friday, April 25, 2008
Ben's first note
Ben says:M mkmfgfovsbfffff
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Sunday, February 17, 2008
Tax Rebate
It is an election year and Congress is giving us back our own money.Are we being bribed?
My guess is they're trying to create goodwill so that we will vote for them in November.
Monday, February 4, 2008
My little disciple
This past Friday night and Saturday there was a motherhood conference that I attended. I learned a lot of good information that I found to be very helpful.
At the beginning were some questions: "Am I valuable if all I do for the next 20 years is "mother" my small bunch of children? Am I going to have regrets? Is this project really worth my life?
Our first tendency is to pour our lives into other people besides our children. But we talked about how "Your own children will be your first and true disciples."
2Corinthians 3:2,3 "You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink, but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone, but on tablets of human hearts."
Our children are to be our letter to this world. Our children watch everything we do and model the behavior of their parents. I was convicted, that I need to change my behavior to be more like Christ so that Benjamin has more to live up to than what I have so far.
We talked about how our mothering should be an outpouring of our relationship with Christ. And that or relationship with Christ should be what we want our children's relationship with Christ to be. However, none of us are perfect and we are all works in progress.
Hebrews 10:14 says "because by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy."
I am so glad that we can have a close, personal, intimate relationship with Christ and that He cares more about or character than our comfort. Some of the times I have learned the most from Him have been difficult times. Don't get me wrong. I do not want difficult times. I avoid pain. I do everything I can to avoid it. But our Heavenly Father knows we need it in order to change our evil behavior. Just the same as our children do. I am glad God is in charge of shaping me, because I would not willingly put myself through difficult circumstances in order to get God's desired results.
I also have to love my son enough to give him the discipline that he needs to become more like Christ. This is going to be hard for me as well. I love that little boy and it will be hard and Rob and I are going to need God's help to train him in the way he should go.
It is going to be hard, but the Bible says that you reap what you sow. If you sow sparingly you will reap sparingly. I love my child and I really hope that I can learn to sow to the spirit, because he is learning by watching me. (and Rob)
At the beginning were some questions: "Am I valuable if all I do for the next 20 years is "mother" my small bunch of children? Am I going to have regrets? Is this project really worth my life?
Our first tendency is to pour our lives into other people besides our children. But we talked about how "Your own children will be your first and true disciples."
2Corinthians 3:2,3 "You yourselves are our letter, written on our hearts, known and read by everybody. You show that you are a letter from Christ, the result of our ministry, written not with ink, but with the Spirit of the living God, not on tablets of stone, but on tablets of human hearts."
Our children are to be our letter to this world. Our children watch everything we do and model the behavior of their parents. I was convicted, that I need to change my behavior to be more like Christ so that Benjamin has more to live up to than what I have so far.
We talked about how our mothering should be an outpouring of our relationship with Christ. And that or relationship with Christ should be what we want our children's relationship with Christ to be. However, none of us are perfect and we are all works in progress.
Hebrews 10:14 says "because by one sacrifice he has made perfect forever those who are being made holy."
I am so glad that we can have a close, personal, intimate relationship with Christ and that He cares more about or character than our comfort. Some of the times I have learned the most from Him have been difficult times. Don't get me wrong. I do not want difficult times. I avoid pain. I do everything I can to avoid it. But our Heavenly Father knows we need it in order to change our evil behavior. Just the same as our children do. I am glad God is in charge of shaping me, because I would not willingly put myself through difficult circumstances in order to get God's desired results.
I also have to love my son enough to give him the discipline that he needs to become more like Christ. This is going to be hard for me as well. I love that little boy and it will be hard and Rob and I are going to need God's help to train him in the way he should go.
It is going to be hard, but the Bible says that you reap what you sow. If you sow sparingly you will reap sparingly. I love my child and I really hope that I can learn to sow to the spirit, because he is learning by watching me. (and Rob)
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